Oh how I cried we wrestled for the longest
than he just stopped. I was determined that Mr. Harris was not going to rape
me. Where he taken me it was so dark that it seem like you can feel the
darkness. I can not tell anyone where he took me because of the darkness. I was
afraid to tell my dad because I knew dad was going to do something dangerous to
Mr. Harris. I did not want my dad to go to jail and be away from the family. I
love my daddy I would have given my life for my dad. My dad's best friend tried
to rape me. I experienced sexual assault I felt so guilty I started to accuse
myself. Mr. Harris poison my mind he said I was to blame. I felt so alone,
horrified, and afraid, if I tell dad, I’ll lose my best friend if I was to tell
my mom she would wouldn't believe me and thought I would make something up. I
was between a rock and a hard place. I found myself as the target of micro
aggression sexuality because Mr. Harris would repeat fondling me over and over
again. I was terrified this sexual experiment does corrupt young children state
of mind.
I have learned that the
effects of discriminations, prejudice and/or stereotypes on people are very critical.
People are not born with the spirit of hate they are taught to hate. We as parents
and teachers should work together in supporting a healthy environment. Because
children have feelings also; they know when they are being discriminated. Discriminations
are when we as teachers does not input the knowledge the children and ourselves
need to support a healthy environment. I do believe when we do not put forward
our best efforts to understand every child has the right for a positive education.
I have learned that prejudice is like a disease it goes down deep in the innermost
being, and it will destroy you. I have learned that children or people are not born
prejudice they are taught to be prejudice. I believe that this is unfair to young
children when we make up their minds for them. I have learned about being stereotypes
on people that we as individuals have the right to believe in what we want to.
Stereotypes are a different group races or individuals who make certain judgment
about people and not knowing the people. An example of stereotypes is that all
black people are uneducated, or all white people with blue eyes are devils. Both
examples are not true and irrelevant. We should respect all people. We as
grownups need to model positive examples for the younger society.
Cedar,
ReplyDeleteWhat a horrible situation you were in as a young girl. You explained your reasoning for not telling your dad because you were afraid he would do something terrible to his friend and be sent to jail. You loved your dad so much that you continued to live through this abuse. We need to teach our young children that they have a voice. We need to empower them to speak to someone if they are going through anything like what you went through. You felt trapped and did not know where to turn. We need to give our young people a place to turn. You are a very strong and brave person to share this story with us. You should be very proud that you have survived this ordeal with your dignity and self-esteem. You will be a strong example to your daughter.
Thanks
Mary Jo
That was a bad situation to be in. I also know of someone close to me that was put in a situation just like yours but it was her stepdad. She would try to tell her mother but her mother would tell her to go away and stop lying. I don't understand why a person wouldn't believe their own child over a man or friend. It's just a lot of evil people in the world praying on small children and we as adults have to protect them from the society.
ReplyDeleteHi Cedar,
ReplyDeleteMy hearts goes out to you, especially being young and not knowing who to turn to.
No, Cedar Mr. Harris did not poison your mind, he made you even more determined and dedicated to help all the children in your care. Never feel defeated by another person’s ignorance. You came back strong, so he never won anything but disgrace. Kathleen